There have been some things going on in my life that I've been working through. I have been using the guidance and affirmations from Creative Visualization to help me and I was feeling like I was making progress.
Then this happened.
Yep, that's me crying in the car this morning on the way to work. I was feeling a bit off when I went to bed last night and hadn't quite shaken it when I woke up. After getting The Princess off to school, I sat & wrote down some of the affirmations I wanted to focus on today. One of these centered on being happy and not letting how other people treat me negatively affect my day, life, and emotions. I told myself that I needed to focus on the positive things in my life and push out the negative. I grabbed my things and headed out the door.
Three minutes into my drive, this song came on and the water works began.
I took off my sunglasses and said out loud, "What in the world is going on?!!?" No one answered me (of course...lol..) and the tears continued to fall. I contemplated pulling over so I could get myself together but decided against it. As the song ended, so did the crying. I thought, "I must be PMSing or something. This is so not like me."
Then this song came on and the crying started again.
What in the...?!?! Why in the...?!?!
Normally, I would pretend like this never happened but let's be real, it did. Obviously, something in the messages of these songs touched me. I think it has to do with feelings of inadequacy but I'm just speculating here ;)
This is what I do know. I'm human. I cry (even though I really really don't like it..lol) and I'm learning to be ok with letting my eyes leak every now & then :)
hang in there chica!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteits ok to cry!!!
at least you admit it,which a lot of us probably never do...
thought of you when i heard this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxeEIJhmT60
(HUG)
ReplyDeleteCry it out boo, cry it out!
There's no shame in it.
Not
one
bit
Creative Visualization by Shakti Gawain is THE BOMB DOT COM!!!!
I'm sorry you're goin thru whatever you're goin thru
but I know you can handle it, and if you need a few cries to get through it, then SO BE IT!
*hands you a kleenex*
There is absolutely nothing wrong with a good cry. (((Hugs)))
ReplyDelete*hug* Everyone deserves a good cry session. Let it out and Let it Go!
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