Thursday, June 28, 2012

Moment of Weakness

Yesterday, I was exhausted...I mean...I was so tired, I was delirious. My body is sore. I'm running on empty. I want to eat a cookie. I want to skip cardio. I want to do everything that I haven't been able to do for the last however many weeks.

I want to quit.

There - I said it.

I want to be done with prep.

Last night I was lying in bed, half asleep, when I said to Tom "I can't do it". He calmly asked, "What the f@%k are you talking about?" to which I replied, "I can't do it. I'm not going to make it to the end of this prep". Tom then said to me "Yes, you can. You've made it this far and you're going to make it to the end". I whimpered and said something about being a quitter and he lovingly patted my arm and told me to shut up &  go to sleep.

Obviously it was what I needed to hear because I turned over and fell right asleep.

When the alarm went off at 4:45 this morning, you want to know what happened? I got up, I put my workout clothes on, and I hit up round 1 of cardio...like a boss :)

Why?

Because my husband's right, I am going to make it to the end. I'm anything but a quitter. I had a moment of weakness & self-doubt and that's ok. It was a moment and now it's behind me.


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28 comments:

  1. Sister, I'm proud of you.
    Remember that so many people are supporting and looking up to you. You inspire me to get off my lazy ass and go to the gym when I feel like I can't.
    And don't worry... I'm bringing you goodies in a couple of weeks. Hang in there and KILL IT!!! I know you will...

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    1. Brother!!! I love you and can't wait to see you!

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  2. Nothing wrong with a moment of weakness and it takes a strong man to support his wife through a prep! You two make an awesome team! Way to push through. You are awesome, T, and you are kicking this prep right in the fanny! And you are going to kill it on stage!

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    1. Tom is def a strong man...I'm a lot to deal with...even when I'm not prepping...lol!! Thank you for your positive words - I'm so appreciative!

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  3. Love this post!!! You are such an inspiration!!

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    1. Aww! Thanks Sable!! Just trying to keep it real and honest!

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  4. You got this T! Freakouts are all part of the prep. When we push past them...we become stronger athletes and competitors! Only a small number of dedicatied individuals can do this sport---you are one of them! Hold your head high and keep crushing it! xoxo

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    1. You are so right, Stephanie! We only become stronger by pushing forward and not letting what we perceive to be weakness get us down! How are things on your end??

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  5. I had the same conversation yesterday, too, ironically. Sisters in Iron! You can do it :) It's been a hard prep for me too.

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    1. We can do this!!! We're almost there!!! 2 weeks, baby!

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  6. LOL< sounds like Tom really knows U!

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    1. The man knows just what to say & when to say! lol!

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  7. Good for you - I've totally been there and have said the exact same words... my boyfriend has told me the same thing.. and it works. I dont know how many times I said "tomorrow is a new day" and it works!!! Keep on swimming.... keep on swimming....

    xoxo

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    1. I'm keeping my eyes on the prize and moving forward! Thanks, Andrea!

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  8. You have willpower of steel! Such a good husband. =)

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    1. I'm a lucky girl - he takes great care of me :)

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  9. Hells yea! You are no quitter, you GOT THIS! Who doesn't have these thoughts? It's what you actually do with them that define your character. =)

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    1. Lisa!! Thank you, love! #Bobettes

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  10. i'm proud of you love! you give me inspiration!

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  11. Just keep thinking of all the people you are inspiring with your determination. We all have moments of weakness. If we didn't we wouldn't have the opportunity to grow and become stronger. You can do it and YES you will! I look forward to seeing your end results. Hang in there...the journey will be worth it!

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    1. That is great advice - I don't want to let anyone down! I'm going to keep pushing forward not only for myself but those who are looking up to me! Thanks!!

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  12. your hubby is right...no turning back on this and he will definitely not let you quit because he is your biggest fan and he knows you are going to make it! I been following you since I started dieting and I admire your courage, strength and humility...dont give up, its not in you to quit!

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    1. Thank you so much! You're so right - Tom knows me - sometimes better than I know myself! I know I can do this & I will!

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  13. Love your perseverance. And I have been there! Keep on keeping on:)

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  14. agreeing with all the others on here!
    atta girl!! what separates you from the "normal" folks is your ability to push past this phase is just keep pushing harder!
    you (and tom) know its do or die time!
    YOU GOT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
    14 days now....
    cheering you on from the virtual sidelines and living vicarious through you!!!
    ***hugs***

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  15. Yup! We all have those moments. :) Good thing you're disciplined and focused. NOTHING will stop you, not even YOU.

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