Monday, December 13, 2010

Just One of Those Days

“It’s just one of those days…that a girl goes through…when I’m empty inside…” I’m bustin’ out with the old school Monica today…it’s my theme song for the day…two things have been really bothering me today… I present to you Thing 1 and Thing 2…

1) I think I might be getting sick. I’ve been feeling a little “off” the past couple of days. My head is pounding and my throat is starting to hurt. I took a Zicam so let’s cross our fingers that it gets rid of my cooties! P.S. If I get sick after being given a flu shot, I will be one crabby biotch!
2) I’ve been looking at pictures of competitors that compete in Class E (which is the class I was placed in my shows) and…umm…yeah…bring on the self-doubt. It’s crossed my mind numerous times today that I’m being too ambitious. I mean, these girls are about the same height as me, weigh at least 20-25 lbs less than I do, and are placing in the top 5. I’m not sure if I can do what it takes to drop that kind of weight and be competitive.

Blah! I hate feelin’ out of whack or like my mojo has decided to go into hiding but I’m not one for bs so I won’t pretend like I don’t have these days.

My plan of action is to stop looking at competitor’s pictures! Instead of motivating me, it’s just taken a wreaking ball to my self-confidence. Next, I’m going to put my jammies on & lay on the couch (after I iron for tomorrow & take care of a couple of other things). I had plans to go to spinning tonight but I think I need to skip it. I’ve looked at the class schedule and I can catch a late class on Thursday night.

If all else fails, I’ll take shot of whiskey…lol!!

Hope you’re having a great day!!


  1. Every time I sing that song, Seth asks if it is about a girl and her period! LMFAO!

    No self-doubt allowed! You are awesome. You are beautiful. You have a bangin' body and a great rack. You aren't a stick. You have great curves, have an awesome amount of muscle, and cut up beautifully. And you have a strong face. ;) Love ya! Keep positive, and email me if you need me. XOXO!

  2. ok,ditto to what genie said!!!!!
    we all have those days-just hang in there!
    sending warm positive vibes your way!!

  3. Times three what Genie said! YOu are amazing inside and out and while everyone has those bad days, it's what you do to turn the next day into a good one that counts!

  4. When I last saw you, you looked SO good and petite! Little Tenecia!
    I know exactly how you are feeling about that.

    BTW....I hope you feel better.

  5. I just want to thank all of you ladies for your support & kind words!!!

  6. I'm reading this,years later, in awe that you ever felt this way- bigger than other competitors,etc. 4 years later, you're killing em!

    My self doubt creeps up on me almost everyday.... So I'm going to take a break from stalking...."admiring" other competitors for now